Saudades...

Here I am, awake at 7:13am... No, I didn't wake up early, I haven't slept yet hehe...

I decided to write this post after surfing around some old friends' profiles on Orkut. It's funny that despite the fact that I will never forget all those people that came into my life, when you change your life so radically as I did, you do leave too much behind...

Since I was a kid I always heard that "goodbyes" are easier for the people that are "leaving" or "moving on" because they are "going", they are on the move to a new adventure and those who are left behind stand still... It might not be completely true, but it is valid somehow...

Looking at some friends' pics I realize how much my life is disconnected from theirs. I know it is normal, after all the distance is so great... however, it is still painful to see that you are not really a part of their lives anymore... I am sure that they still love me as I love them... but that "day-today" relationship is over and that is when the "saudades" come in...

"SAUDADE" is a very special word and it only exists with it's intensity in the Portuguese language... the closest to it in English would be "to miss someone/something".

"SAUDADE" is an extreme sense of longing for people, places and things you love and that the absence hurts a lot...

There are so many people I miss, so many people I left behind and in different places... I know I will never forget them and they will always have a special place in my heart... I also know that I will see them all again and we will celebrate life together again...

On the mosaic above I show some of these people, in different moments of my life... Moischa, meu bebe, Mimi, Vitti, Aline, Nigga, lil' nigga, Leny, Manu, Iroca, Mammy, Flavio, Rodo...

*Some people are not there simply because I don't have their pictures (pics with me I mean)...

I lost so many files when my computer crashed...

**To name a few of the missing ones: Isabelle (my bitch), Leidy, Gaby, Fafa, Nando, Rodrigo... (sorry if I forgot anyone...)

***I didn't add any pics of my great friends in Israel... this post is about who I left behind... I do love you all...

Ps: To anonymous: I do watch a lot of TV shows, I DL about 25 a week...

Thanks for the comments: Anonymous, Gooooood girl and misfit :) keep on coming :D